Thyroiditis was dominating my thoughts at that time, and with good reason, it was causing a deafeningly-loud whooshing sound in my right ear. It was enough to drive a person mad, and I began clamoring for an answer to what was causing it, and more importantly, how to make it stop, IMMEDIATELY!
That began my journey, which eventually led me to read a book, and now I’m in a pretty good place with it all. It went away, for the most part. And it happened so gradually that I almost didn’t even notice.
Today I began to really think; out of all the things I tried (and I did a lot: working out, going sober, elimination diets, meditation, acupuncture, chiropractic, massage) what were the ones that really WORKED?
The answer? The most effective thing was to stop working on it. I pretty much just stopped thinking about it. I also worked hard on eliminating any negative feelings about anything. ANYTHING. So no worrying. No brooding. NO BLAMING (the key).
When a friend complains about work being boring, my first thought was to get annoyed at my job, because yes, it fucking sucks sometimes! Instead I’d put a good spin on it and say, yes, work is a great place to catch up on your daydreaming and web surfing.
It just makes me feel lighter to laugh at the crap that sucks, which relaxes my muscles in my face and neck, which allows my ear to drain more freely (ew).
I also give some credit to my HerbaSway teas. There’s a lot of antioxidants in those fuckers, it’s gotta be helping. 🙂
I still drink wine, eat cheese, sometimes forget to eat, and drink coffee.
I do those things when I feel like it.
I don’t hold back if I don’t want to,
because I trust that my body will talk to me when it wants me to stop.
And then I’ll rest until I feel better.
And everything will be fine. Always. 🙂