I’ve been majorly MIA, mentally for weeks now. I love this little blog and it’s hard when I’m so busy that I can’t give it tons of attention. It’s not that I’m too busy, really, it’s that when I’m really busy at work, I’m not doing lots of cool DIY and cooking projects, so I feel like there isn’t enough to write about. So, because of that, I’m going to write about work, and you’re going to like it. 😉
Right now I’m going through a long phase of recovering from having 2 acute cases of “the babies”. When a lady has a baby, she generally doesn’t want to work, she wishes she had enough money to stay home with her new baby(s). If she has to work, she’s probably not doing it all that whole-heartedly. What might happen then, is that she starts to develop a crazy complex that her work might not be worth much money, and she falls into a self destructive spiral of accepting work that doesn’t pay much.
This might be all fine and good for some, but it happened to me, and it’s not OK. So, I’m realizing I need to restructure how I think about myself and my business. There was once a time when I charged a high hourly rate, and had clients who didn’t bat an eyelash when I told them what it was. Somehow I’ve slipped into a realm where I have some folks telling me what they’ll pay, and it ain’t what I used to charge, and instead of telling them to take a flying leap, I get scared to turn away work because, hey, we need money. Then I end up giving them the same high quality service, and feeling down on myself and them for not paying me enough.
The other part of this tricky situation is that I spend so much time working hard for not enough pay, that I end up failing to design the stuff I need in order to go out into the world and getting higher-paying work. I am a web designer, and my website hasn’t been updated since 2006! What kind of crap is that? Would you hire a roofer whose own roof was caving in?! Look at this, check out the About page, I was blonde! http://meredithkstudios.net/.
Because telling the whole world that you have a goal is a great way to shame myself into achieving it, I’m doing that. For the next few weeks, I’m going to work on my business. I think I’ll need to do some of it in the evenings, and that’s OK. I’m going to keep you updated on the progress. Please feel free to offer constructive criticism along with way!
Enjoy your Monday and don’t forget to make an effort to love your job, even if your boss is being a huge piece of shit!